美国男演员德雷克·贝尔透露他在2005年录制的歌曲是关于他的性虐待的

Drake Bell is revealing that a song from his debut album hinted at the sexual abuse he survived as a teen, nearly two decades before he publicly acknowledged the traumatic experience in the recent docuseries, Quiet on Set: The Dark Side of Kids TV.

德雷克·贝尔透露，他的首张专辑中的一首歌暗示了他在青少年时期遭受的性虐待，近20年后，他在最近的纪录片《安静的片场:儿童电视的阴暗面》中公开承认了这一创伤经历。

In a new TikTok, the Drake & Josh actor shared that he wrote “In the End, a song from his 2005 debut album, Telegraph, in response to the pain of the sexual abuse he faced from Nickelodeon dialogue coach Brian Peck. “Wrote this song when I was 15 about what happened before I said anything to anyone,” Bell shared in the video.

这位出演《德雷克与乔什》的演员在新的TikTok上分享说，他在2005年的首张专辑《电讯报》(Telegraph)中写了一首歌《最终》(In the End)，以回应尼克国际儿童频道(Nickelodeon)对话教练布莱恩·派克(Brian Peck)对他性侵的痛苦。贝尔在视频中分享道:“这首歌是我15岁时写的，讲述的是在我对任何人说任何事情之前发生的事情。”

“In the End” features lyrics like “In the end, are you stronger?/Do you no longer need to recover?/And where have you been since it's been over?/Over my shoulder, under my skin, will you ever return again?”

“In the End”的歌词是“In the End, you are stronger?”/你不再需要恢复了吗?/事情结束后你去哪儿了?/在我的肩膀上，在我的皮肤下，你还会回来吗?”

Other lyrics like “The monsters in your head have left you/All to yourself, it's alright/If ugly little things remind you of how it felt/Another day, no one tells you what it means” also take on new meaning with the retroactive context of Peck’s repeated abuse of Bell in the years preceding the song. Peck, whom Bell met as a cast member of The Amanda Show, was arrested in 2003 and convicted of child molestation in 2004.

其他歌词，如“你脑子里的怪物已经离开了你/一切留给你自己，没关系/如果丑陋的小事情让你想起它的感觉/又一天，没有人告诉你它意味着什么”，在这首歌之前的几年里，佩克反复辱骂贝尔，这也有了新的含义。佩克是贝尔在出演《阿曼达秀》时认识的，她于2003年被捕，并于2004年被判猥亵儿童罪。

Bell released four additional albums since his musical debut in 2005. His sixth album, Non-Stop Flight, is set to release sometime this year. The first single, “I Kind of Relate,” features a music video that directly references some of the most troubling incidents from the singer’s tumultuous personal life. 

贝尔自2005年出道以来，又发行了四张专辑。他的第六张专辑《不停的飞行》将于今年发行。第一首单曲《I Kind of Relate》的音乐视频直接提到了这位歌手动荡的个人生活中一些最令人不安的事件。

“I don’t wanna sound like I did this for promotion or anything, but I am working on a new album, I just released a new music video that actually talks about this,” Bell said in an interview with The Sarah Fraser Show. “The very opening scene deals with what I went through in the documentary, my car accident, going into rehab.”

贝尔在接受《莎拉·弗雷泽秀》采访时说:“我不想让人觉得我这样做是为了宣传或其他什么，但我正在制作一张新专辑，我刚刚发布了一个新的音乐视频，实际上是在谈论这件事。”“最开场的场景就是我在纪录片中经历的事情，我的车祸，去戒毒所。”

The video begins with a child actor (who represents Bell) being led into a trailer by a much-older man, who suspiciously closes the blinds. The camera then pans to present-day Bell in a car crash surrounded by paparazzi — presumably a nod to his 2015 DUI arrest. The video later shows Bell attending a meeting resembling an Alcoholics Anonymous session before the singer finds a new home in Mexico, where his music is more popular than in the U.S.

视频开始时，一名童星(代表贝尔)被一名年长得多的男子带进了一辆拖车，此人可疑地关上了百叶窗。然后，镜头转向了现在的贝尔，他被狗仔队包围着发生车祸——大概是对他2015年酒后驾车被捕的致意。这段视频后来显示，贝尔参加了一个类似于匿名戒酒会的会议，之后他在墨西哥找到了一个新家，他的音乐在墨西哥比在美国更受欢迎。

The song also features lyrics like “I’m running away/From the abuse and all the shame” and “I found love in Mexico/‘Cause no one wants to hear me/In the States” that clearly reflect Bell’s career. He also sings “She left me unaware/‘Cause I didn’t care/For anything dear to her,” which may be a reference to the singer’s wife filing for divorce in 2023.

这首歌的歌词还包括“我正在逃离/从虐待和所有的耻辱”和“我在墨西哥找到了爱/因为没有人想听我/在美国”，这些歌词清楚地反映了贝尔的职业生涯。他还唱到“她离开我不知道/因为我不在乎/她所珍爱的一切”，这可能是指这位歌手的妻子在2023年申请离婚。