Because of His Love 因爱之名
Because of His Love 因爱之名
◎ Susan Fiedler
Job was not a brilliant man. He swept floors for a living. He believed that Tarzan was a real man, and that all those movies were really documentaries of Tarzan’s life. He was the butt of many jokes, yet he taught me about the essence of a “real man”: love and respect for women, honor, kindness and gentleness.
乔布并不是个聪明的人，他以打扫楼道为生。他相信在现实生活中，泰山是真实存在的，所有的那些电影都是泰山生活的真实记录片。他是大家取笑的对象，然而，他教会了我“真正的人”应有的品质：爱护与尊重女性、荣誉、善良和亲切。
Job embraced life in unexpected, simple ways. He showed up for work, on time. He never bragged about himself, and he loved only one woman—his wife, Molly. Job filled a void in my life. He was principled and straightforward in my world of dishonor and lies. He loved me as his very own grandchild, even though he was a year younger than my father.
乔布用出人意料的简单方式拥抱生活。他工作准时，从不吹嘘自己，而且只爱一个女人——他的妻子莫莉。乔布填补了我生命中的空白。在我那满布谎言和耻辱的世界里，他是如此有原则和正直。他像爱自己的孙女一样爱我，尽管他比我父亲还小一岁。
I will never forget my graduation from high school. That was a day of hopeless inevitability for me. My father, who was a heavy drinker, began his celebration very early in the day. By the time we congregated in the high school gymnasium, my father had congratulated himself through nearly a case of beer.
我永远也不会忘记高中毕业时的情形。那天对我来说本是注定让人绝望的。我的酒鬼父亲，那天一大早就开始自己狂欢了。当我们在学校体育馆集中庆祝时，他已浸在几乎一箱啤酒里自己作乐了。
I tried to be invisible within a sea of faces. I wanted to run away. Disappear. Most of all I wanted no one to guess whose kid I was. I was betrayed by my last name, which began with the letter “A”, so I was the first graduate on the first row. Being a red-head gave me even more exposure, and the baccalaureate speaker, who had never met me, decided to use me as his audio-visual aid.
我尽力让自己淹没在人山人海里。我很想要离家出走，我想消失。我最希望的，就是没人知道我是谁的孩子。可我的姓氏出卖了我。我姓氏的首字母是“A”，因此我是第一排的第一个毕业生。满头的红发让我更加显眼，而那个与我从未谋面的毕业致辞者，决定把我当做辅助他“教学的工具”。
“This young lady, this bright young lady, with the bright red hair.” His voice rolled through the auditorium in sonorous phrases, as I sank lower in my seat. Over to my left, at the door of the auditorium, was a seating arrangement for the “elderly”. And there sat Molly, age 61, and Job, age 47, with all of the grandparents. My heart ached when I looked at them, wishing with all my heart that I were, truly, their grandchild.
“这位小姐，这位长着一头亮丽红发的漂亮女士。”他言辞夸张，洪亮的声音在礼堂里盘旋回响，而座位上的我缩得更低了。我左边的礼堂门口处，是给“长者”安排的座位区。61岁的莫莉和47岁的乔布，跟其他人的祖父母们都坐在那儿。我望着他们，心如刀割。我多么希望我真是他们的孙女。
As the speaker continued with his speech, he reached a point where he had an uncontrollable urge to introduce “all the wonderful people, who have made this day possible!”
发言者继续着他的演讲，说到点子上时，他按捺不住内心的激动，要介绍“所有成就了今天毕业礼的了不起的人！”
“All the siblings of the graduates, please, stand.” I slipped lower in my seat, glancing hurriedly around, hoping to remain invisible.
“所有即将毕业的同学，请起立。”我靠在座位上，身子藏得更低了，眼睛快速地向周围扫视了一下，但愿没人看得见我。
“Now, all the parents, please stand.” Dear Lord, I thought, I’m sure my father can’t stand, even if he wanted to. I didn’t bother to look around.
“现在，所有的父母，请起立。”天啊，我暗地里想，我敢肯定，即使我父亲想站，他也站不起来了。我甚至看都不用看了。
“Now the grandparents” I closed my eyes, dreading the hopelessness of my situation. I had no grandparent to stand proudly for me. I finally opened my eyes, and there they were Job and Molly, standing proudly with all the other grandparents. Job looked over at me, his eyes beaming like diamonds.
“现在，祖父母们……”我闭上眼睛，处境让我不堪设想。没有祖父母会为我自豪地站起来。我最后睁开了眼睛，他们站起来了——乔布和莫莉，他们跟所有的祖父母一起自豪地站起来了。乔布看着我，眼睛里闪烁着钻石般的光芒。
“I’m so proud of you.” he smiled as he mouthed the words that I will never forget. I knew that he stood there, not out of duty, but because of his love for me!
“我真为你感到骄傲。”他做着口形说道，说的时候面带笑容，而我将永远也不会忘记这些话。我知道，他站起来并不是出于责任，而是因为他对我的爱！
